I feel like there are bugs crawling across my brain and i’m scared i’ll do something stupid. I am nothing then i am manic. When i lose control of my thoughts i might do some of the things i dream about.. i am frightened of myself. I am fightened of my own mind. I just want it to stop.

I want to break my skull and go into a coma so i can’t think or feel, and wake up when i’m normal..